every game has a jack-pot.
i am tired and frust.
only lego and donkey ..
yet, where.

chére chat tu me manque beaucoup
quand nous allons nous promener tous les deux le matin
quand tu etais a mes cotés je me sentais si heureuse et je voyais les arcs en ciel et maintenent que tu n'ai plus la je me sent triste et le temps c'est assombri

i know we might belongs to somewhere better ;)

Yup. and yup. I am very particular about my drinks such as you have to pour my cognac before ice cube, my bourbon should be with one complete shot with two shot coke and three ice cube, my red / white served in room/chilled dry/wet glasses, my stout/ale at perfect pour and garnishing to my liquer.

On everyday basis, I enjoy my tea and coffee like a queen in a pot. No matter how hectic, I will always never missed a chance my fav coffee bean place at Gurney Hotel for the Breakfast O Farmer and my fav greentea without sugar at Segafredo.




if you know me well, you will realised something very sticky to me went missing.. yup yup yup .. it will be my fav Dunhill Red!!!
However I took a day off from red because need to spend sometime finishing cig Wong got for me ;..


hmmm... i went to Rasa Sayang 9-Hole 3 Par ... look...
bloody small la..


but Ferringhi Grill still around!! Just that it look nicer...



and for sure i can't missed out something like this which will be... yup yup yup yup... lepaking at Beach la what else.. I love this beach with my Tia Maria with coke however they have only Kahlua.. I hate it when the coke mixed with it causing it too sweet... and those gwailo loitering there making me feel like Penang gonna be the second samui in times to come where all penangtiest will have to move out due to higher living cost and less job oportunity.

My lappie once again got corrupted. There is this file that i download playing tricks with my system me think. It can't be deleted no matter how. I tried Panda and such.. Even daniel trying to work it out. duh.. must think and think if it still can be fixed. otherwise, time for me to get a new lap top. my purse getting deadlier month after month.

let me recall...    this month expenditure goes to...

- clothes ( i got new sarung. i love batik and songket so much)
- new pyjamas too. wanted to shoppe at Chulia Street for some linen but...
-new digicam
-newspapers
-new flight ticket
-new debt
-new top up spa package
-membership renewal

what is up next month?
my initial plan:
-melacca trip
-new mp4 player
-new external HD
-new alloccation for my scuba diving - licence come come license~
-new allocation for year end trip *wink*wink*

again, this month salary gone.....

thankx to all pg fellas that pop up to greet my arrival and return!

i had super steamboat.. super beefy ones! someone must have love this .. it will be nice if he could join me ;)


also.. the island german platter which i still prefer those in KL


of coz i drink only *orange juice* and the rest had the draft Stout and beers.

what must be listed is cock*tail haha

 and hawkers food

and arrrr...

and arrrrr....

cam out of batt.. will resume when i got it charged!!! the power rules~~

special thanks dedicated to DC, Derek,Jie Yee, Thomas, Shirminh, Jocelynn, lina Gladus, Sweet, Nick, Yuki, Steph, Christ, Eugene, Rom, Kooi, CH, and bla bla bla..... everyone of u all la.. lazy to list further la....
the day after Glo and Shamrock...

Nice meeting you again Eugene & Irene and congrats onto the wedding! Can't wait to see your Royale Bintang Wedding :)
nice to meet you new pal Esther and Carene :)

i am still updating the pic.

maybe will take more this weekend.
 
see how happy ? sh*t. i was feeling embarrased *blushed* when he took my pic... haha

the following one with suprise snapshot makes me feel cool..

 but the final one i really didn't know he is holding my cam!!!!! look like Ch*na whore...

Sms done. Calls accepted. Talks exceptions. Come to think about it, if i were to question what should be listed if i were to be discovered if i am trusted by you:

I think i would think that i am not trusted by you when:

you repeat your question more than twice even though you are cleared and understand it, and you asked several time just trying to lie your own ear for extra 30 second more and hoping for an expected answer. - you don't trust me

you check my accounts without my acknowledgement before hand even though i have answers your enquiries about my accounts' particulars numerous times honestly and detaily as you wanted it to be - you don't trust me

you suspect my behaviour and start every possible way to find out what i am actually doing although i have frankly told you what i am doing and going to do. you dig every corner for informations again and again. - you don't trust me anymore

you make thousand noise with the same excusses trying to breach and degrade my freedom although you have earlier been warned. - you never trust me

you force me stay out of my line and walk you way - you reluctant to trust me

you push me think like the way you think - you dun trust me

you try to be judgemental towards my memories and try very hard to pollute it so that it could be eliminated due to the circumstances that you are afraid of you could be defeated again tomorrow which resulted higher level of lower selfesteem from inner you. - you never trust me at all

you monopoly my spending power and aggrasively confront me with your own imaginative based phylosophies - trust never appear in your eyes

you try using barring as a way to control me. does it works with my mind?

well, at this moment i can only think of this... it could be more but never the less, for all the above arise, i will definatly reconsider if i am really getting you right. and for sure, i know you don't trust me at all. what is important to me on top of everything else, is, your trust. from my side, i dun mind you to be the one without trusting me, but only if i know we can survive with your trust. your trust is above, ontop, of everything.

did i just spelled wrongly?
i know and freaking sleeping. days are getting more meaningless for certain.

    muaxxx muaxxxx kiss kiss lick lick ;)
blek...   hahahahahahaha vegetarian....

ahhhh.. just came back from a wonderful "bak kee" session. and super big thanks to W for so kind of him bringing me some apple flavour shits from his business trip to China. According to W, the business industrial exhibition was great, too far advance from his expectation. It was held in an extremely unexpected giantic mega-sized exhibition hall. Glad that he had such a wonderful business trip.

I am supposed to attend one of business trip to Thailand during this long break. However, due to some internal company politic, I think it would be wise to skip this instead. The resposibility in producing the report for this trip could greatly affected the Johor Nusaria Project, which in listed as part of 9MP. Well, I should have take a break from work from this minute onwards because it is now officially Deepavali 2006 and I in the mood for taking a break due to all cummulative stress. *yeah after this blog, i still need to get my company profile done and email it to my boss before this Monday.*

Babe C, i miss u so much. You trip to New Jersey for a month really annoyed me. I have not much talking to do with you yet I need your accompany so much. I am so sad tha you are so far away for this business trip of yours. I cannot imagine if one day we parted really far, since this time is only for a month long. I wonder if those groceries and adapters you bring over is complete or sufficient for you. I worried about your daily meal. I have keep a pack of Apple Menthol for you. Hehe. U know all this while I am a fans for Dunhill red so a packet less of Apple Green doesn't really affect much, though it was a real appreciated piece of gift from W. We shares remember! haha. Can't wait for you to come back. You make me hate Johnson&Johnson now. They sent u so far away from me for a month long.  Bad bad.. good thing about J&J is, they giv u new car. congrats on that. I am so happy coz now we have new car on the road when u come back and we party together. I will be a good driver *promise*

I have arrangement with H for my saturday. He invited me over for a dinner to celebrate this deepavali. I wonder how should I dress up, I have no Saree... *sob*sob* .... I will make sure u get drunk with many many TODI...since your house is just so nearby Gold Coast.... I will make sure i soak your head in sea salt water!!!! Do not show off with your MP3 collection. Because I will get really jealous.... hahaha

S promised to get me some nice lunch for next day and maybe couple of drinks as I always say, S is my best lepaking partner. Glad S is doing well with Nestle nowaday.

Has been long since the last I meet up with my babe J and gang. So we reserved Heritage for Monday since two of them are away for Balik Kampung. I have got a room package. Yeah, we use to do that almost weekly~ So fun to get drunk and sing with u guys.


hmmm what a raya afternoon package with Y? I think Y and gang miss me too.. I talk to Y this afternoon and we did plan for Melacca trip on Nov. on the spot we fixed the date. I am gonna take lotsa pic with my new Olympus ~~~

Well, I can say I am happy today because I has been informed that I am indeed one of my boss fav staff!! I just joined for the third month and supposingly serving a 6 month probation, somehow I got early confirmation!!!!! hooorayyyyy...

hmm.. another thing is worth mentioned about, I am still considering should I feel the present of reader for this randomly updated blog? I didn't aware they are some unexpected reader that eventually love dropby to pay a visit. It is to my supprise.. haha.. Now I know i have LOYAL reader.. I do hope none of them has been influence by our typical-cultured culture that actually involve freedom of speech. If you are reading The Star, why are you reading the next issue when you hate it so much? Sometimes, when you reduce your complains, you can makes life easier. and when you know way to determine which is joke or freedom, or privacy, you may gain peace and maintain peace. For country that still planing for nuclear test, please be not over protective and please be open for being not over sensitive. Your are soy-sauce-marinating your golden arch.

Meanwhile, happy deepavali and hari raya to me.

Often I thought I could be young still. However, whenever I found something childish, I can't let myself stay in denial. I am getting matured and grow older day after day. Same like how my career do, I grow from a junior to assistant and now having numbers people assisting me. Actually, i was in one of my conversation windows, and i bumped into things that irritate me most, which is having a conversation that you thought you are actually speaking to the account person. However, I realise someone privacy has been bashed and got corrupted. Well, if your account needless to be respect, but please do learn to know way to asleast respect your own name when you are not even the person I was actually intend to speak to. Well, I just not up to speaking to unknown stranger who love to speak to me unless u kick me right. So, you gotta get some respect for privacy before i start putting some wonder if some small town people has narrow brain. This kiddo is just a mirror to the childish me donkey age ago.

Catcat (10/17/2006 3:44:32 PM): heh
Catcat (10/17/2006 3:45:48 PM): I'll msg you in the middle of the night
feyfey (10/17/2006 9:37:34 PM): sure. no problem
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:25:52 PM): how come re-add? u got mine deleted ka? haha funny u
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:26:21 PM): austin dunno when is oct festival
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:26:50 PM): cool. thx
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:27:31 PM): how r u lately ?
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:28:47 PM): work, travelling, golf, work, shop, spa, cook, gambling, work, travelling and golf bla bla
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:28:47 PM): heard u went back to KL rite
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:29:09 PM): good then ..no more drug ..remember
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:29:50 PM): neh.. i still do pots..
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:29:51 PM): oppsss...btw , forgot to tell ..i am coel
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:30:00 PM): most weekend in pg
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:30:03 PM): weekday kl
feyfey (10/17/2006 11:30:10 PM): tiu
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:30:25 PM): kinda fun rite ?!
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:31:03 PM): ok ... u tiu me mean dun like my talks
Catcat (10/17/2006 11:31:04 PM): hahah

i don't know why, but I just feel so much to be at Wasaga Beach right now. I have never been there, never heard of that. Somehow, that place happen to be appeared in my dream last night and i saw the frozen white beach. Its gives me the stone cold feeling by my no longer warm at heart ocean. being there could really makes me feel so much at a place that smooth my instinct, or a place that really soothe the aggro evil spirit in me. i missed you.

thanks captain daniel for the nice food around the island, and mr. lik for the navigation of fun drunken night. mos rocks, i prefer trans n house rather than too much r&b. the night of chor tai de really fun thanks to mr. kenny for his funny shits. poor babe carrie missed her peace while trying to shop without flu... the hotel place is soso, coz all the while i only had resort place, anyway nice to know with this way, i can have more allocation for shopping n shopping.

stuff i got this month.. top ups for my spa package, a new bottle of dkny red delicious apple, a bottle of davidoff for daddy, a new wallet for myself, a little soft piggie for sis, a new pair of red suede Clark, a new pyjamas and few lipgloss and lingeries~~

now i feel good coz i am officially broke at the begining of the month after the island trip n shopping list. now i think i am so dyhidrated n ache all over after two rocking night.

i saw her and apparently i was so happy to know how is she doing today. though i still dislike for what happen n caused our broken relationship, i still appreciate and feel happy for her success. whether she bother or not for how close we had been, whether she did once appreciated the tears and laughter we had through our sincererity, i still remember and will always do, we was only once living in a dream and something woke us from our sleep. wish you the blessing though i might be the forgotten wall that i was once you might had lean on.